Thursday, January 22, 2009
I wonder if there is anything more crushing than the realization of how close one came to succeeding, to shining, to surviving, and then failing. Forever you stand in the shards of your dreams and accomplishments which, for all of their trouble and toil, are now utterly useless and pointless.
That tragedy envelopes and engulfs the faint glimmer of hope and you stand there, that glimpse of hope seared into your mind of what could have been but ultimately wasn't. For all the pain and trouble, you wonder why.
Down the long hallway I can see hope, but I can never reach it no matter how hard I run. So I am stuck here dreaming of what it would be like over there and wondering why I ever bothered to try.